On the Step

“He’s asleep,” Ana said quickly. “He’s upstairs, asleep. He’s all right.” Then she saw that this was not true, and that Michael could see it in her face. She took a breath. “No. He isn’t all right. We went to the hospital yesterday. He has Parkinson’s disease, Michael.”

“Dia sedang tidur,” kata Ana cepat-cepat. “Dia ada di lantai atas, sedang tidur. Dia baik-baik saja.” Kemudian dia melihat bahwa ini tidak benar, dan bahwa Michael bisa melihatnya di wajahnya. Dia menarik napas. “Tidak. Dia tidak baik-baik saja. Kami pergi ke rumah sakit kemarin. Dia menderita penyakit Parkinson, Michael.”

For a moment Michael did not move at all. Then he walked the last few steps to the bakery, very slowly, like a much older man. He looked at the open door and the bright kitchen. Then he sat down on the step, next to the paper bag, with his long coat folded under him.

Untuk sesaat Michael sama sekali tidak bergerak. Kemudian dia berjalan beberapa langkah terakhir menuju toko roti, sangat lambat, seperti orang yang jauh lebih tua. Dia menatap pintu yang terbuka dan dapur yang terang. Kemudian dia duduk di undakan, di sebelah kantong kertas, dengan mantel panjangnya terlipat di bawahnya.

Ana understood that he had not sat on this step for fifteen years. She did not say anything. She sat down next to him. Behind them, Crumb came to the door, smelled Michael’s coat carefully and lay down across the doorway with a heavy sigh.

Ana paham bahwa dia belum pernah duduk di undakan ini selama lima belas tahun. Dia tidak berkata apa-apa. Dia duduk di sebelahnya. Di belakang mereka, Crumb datang ke pintu, mencium mantel Michael dengan hati-hati dan berbaring melintang di ambang pintu sambil menghela napas berat.

“He doesn’t know you,” Ana said. “Crumb, I mean. He’s only ten.”

“Dia tidak mengenalmu,” kata Ana. “Maksudku, Crumb. Usianya baru sepuluh tahun.”

“We had a dog called Toast when I was a boy,” Michael said. His voice was very quiet. “My mother named him. She named everything after food.” He looked at his hands. “Tell me what the doctor said. All of it. Please.”

“Kami dulu punya anjing bernama Toast waktu aku masih kecil,” kata Michael. Suaranya sangat pelan. “Ibuku yang memberinya nama. Dia menamai semuanya dari nama makanan.” Dia memandangi tangannya. “Ceritakan padaku apa kata dokter. Semuanya. Tolong.”

So Ana told him. She told him about the tests and the young doctor with the warm hands. She told him that the disease would slowly get worse, and that the tablets could help, maybe for years. She told him that heavy work at night was not a good idea any more. She told him about the keys.

Maka Ana menceritakannya. Dia bercerita tentang pemeriksaan itu dan dokter muda bertangan hangat. Dia mengatakan bahwa penyakit itu perlahan-lahan akan memburuk, dan bahwa tablet-tablet itu bisa membantu, mungkin untuk beberapa tahun. Dia mengatakan bahwa kerja berat pada malam hari bukan lagi ide yang baik. Dia bercerita tentang kunci-kunci itu.

When she had finished, Michael put his face in his hands. He did not cry. He just sat there, breathing slowly, while the river moved past in the dark. Ana waited. She had learned in this town that waiting was sometimes the kindest thing you could do.

Setelah dia selesai bercerita, Michael menangkupkan wajahnya di kedua tangannya. Dia tidak menangis. Dia hanya duduk di sana, bernapas perlahan, sementara sungai mengalir melewati mereka di dalam kegelapan. Ana menunggu. Dia telah belajar di kota ini bahwa menunggu terkadang adalah hal paling baik yang bisa dilakukan seseorang.

“His hands,” Michael said at last. “He had the best hands in Yorkshire. People came from Leeds for his bread. When I was a boy, I used to watch his hands and think they could do anything.” He laughed, a small broken laugh. “And now his hands can’t hold a tray, and I’m sitting on his step like a thief.”

“Tangannya,” kata Michael akhirnya. “Dia punya tangan terbaik di Yorkshire. Orang-orang datang dari Leeds demi rotinya. Waktu aku masih kecil, aku sering melihat tangannya dan berpikir tangannya bisa melakukan apa saja.” Dia tertawa, tawa kecil yang terdengar getir. “Dan sekarang tangannya tidak bisa memegang baki, dan aku duduk di undakannya seperti pencuri.”

“You’re not a thief. He puts the bread out for you. He has done it for fifteen years.”

“Kamu bukan pencuri. Dia meletakkan roti itu di luar untukmu. Dia sudah melakukannya selama lima belas tahun.”

“What did you do?” Ana asked. “For fifteen years. Where did you go?”

“Apa yang kamu lakukan?” tanya Ana. “Selama lima belas tahun. Ke mana saja kamu pergi?”

Michael shrugged. “Everywhere, and nowhere. Liverpool first, then Birmingham, then a lot of small towns. I worked in factories and warehouses and once on a fishing boat in Scotland. I never stayed anywhere longer than two years. Six years ago I bought the Second Chance from an old man in Manchester. A house that moves, he called it. That was what I wanted. A house that could leave.”

Michael mengangkat bahu. “Ke mana-mana, dan tidak ke mana-mana. Pertama ke Liverpool, lalu Birmingham, lalu banyak kota kecil. Aku bekerja di pabrik-pabrik dan gudang-gudang dan pernah di kapal nelayan di Skotlandia. Aku tidak pernah tinggal di mana pun lebih dari dua tahun. Enam tahun lalu aku membeli Second Chance dari seorang pria tua di Manchester. Rumah yang bergerak, begitu dia menyebutnya. Itu yang kuinginkan. Rumah yang bisa pergi.”