On the Step

“He’s asleep,” Ana said quickly. “He’s upstairs, asleep. He’s all right.” Then she saw that this was not true, and that Michael could see it in her face. She took a breath. “No. He isn’t all right. We went to the hospital yesterday. He has Parkinson’s disease, Michael.”

“他睡了，”Ana连忙说，“他在楼上，睡着了。他没事。”接着她发现这不是真话，而且Michael能从她的脸上看出来。她深吸了一口气。“不。他不好。我们昨天去医院了。Michael，他得了帕金森病。”

For a moment Michael did not move at all. Then he walked the last few steps to the bakery, very slowly, like a much older man. He looked at the open door and the bright kitchen. Then he sat down on the step, next to the paper bag, with his long coat folded under him.

有一会儿，Michael一动也不动。然后他走完了去面包店的最后几步，走得很慢，像个年纪大得多的人。他看着开着的门和明亮的厨房。接着他在台阶上坐了下来，就在纸袋旁边，长外套叠在身下。

Ana understood that he had not sat on this step for fifteen years. She did not say anything. She sat down next to him. Behind them, Crumb came to the door, smelled Michael’s coat carefully and lay down across the doorway with a heavy sigh.

Ana明白，他已经有十五年没坐过级台阶了。她什么也没说，在他身边坐了下来。在他们身后，Crumb走到门前，仔细闻了闻Michael的外套，然后重重地叹了口气，在门口趴了下来。

“He doesn’t know you,” Ana said. “Crumb, I mean. He’s only ten.”

“他不认识你，”Ana说，“我是说Crumb。他才十岁。”

“We had a dog called Toast when I was a boy,” Michael said. His voice was very quiet. “My mother named him. She named everything after food.” He looked at his hands. “Tell me what the doctor said. All of it. Please.”

“我小的时候，我们有一只叫Toast的狗，”Michael说。他的声音很轻。“我母亲给它起的名字。她把所有东西都用食物来命名。”他看着自己的双手。“告诉我医生说了什么。全部告诉我。求你了。”

So Ana told him. She told him about the tests and the young doctor with the warm hands. She told him that the disease would slowly get worse, and that the tablets could help, maybe for years. She told him that heavy work at night was not a good idea any more. She told him about the keys.

于是Ana告诉了他。她对他讲了那些检查，讲了那个手很暖和的年轻医生。她告诉他，这种病会慢慢变严重，吃药能起作用，也许能维持好几年。她告诉他，夜里干重活已经不是好主意了。她还告诉了他钥匙的事。

When she had finished, Michael put his face in his hands. He did not cry. He just sat there, breathing slowly, while the river moved past in the dark. Ana waited. She had learned in this town that waiting was sometimes the kindest thing you could do.

等她说完了，Michael用双手捂住了脸。他没有哭。他只是坐在那里，慢慢地呼吸着，河水在黑暗中流过。Ana静静地等着。在这个镇上，她学会了有时候等待是你能做的最温柔的事。

“His hands,” Michael said at last. “He had the best hands in Yorkshire. People came from Leeds for his bread. When I was a boy, I used to watch his hands and think they could do anything.” He laughed, a small broken laugh. “And now his hands can’t hold a tray, and I’m sitting on his step like a thief.”

“他的手，”Michael终于开口了，“他在约克郡的手艺是最好的。人们从利兹跑来买他的面包。我小的时候，常看着他的双手，觉得它们无所不能。”他笑了笑，笑声轻微而干涩。“可现在他的手连烤盘都端不住了，而我却像个小偷一样坐在他的台阶上。”

“You’re not a thief. He puts the bread out for you. He has done it for fifteen years.”

“你不是小偷。面包是他特意留给你的。他这样做了十五年。”

“What did you do?” Ana asked. “For fifteen years. Where did you go?”

“那你做了什么？”Ana问，“这十五年里。你去了哪里？”

Michael shrugged. “Everywhere, and nowhere. Liverpool first, then Birmingham, then a lot of small towns. I worked in factories and warehouses and once on a fishing boat in Scotland. I never stayed anywhere longer than two years. Six years ago I bought the Second Chance from an old man in Manchester. A house that moves, he called it. That was what I wanted. A house that could leave.”

Michael耸了耸肩。“到处都去过，又好像哪儿也没去。先是利物浦，然后是伯明翰，后来去了很多小镇。我在工厂和仓库干过活，有一回还在苏格兰的一艘渔船上干过。我在任何地方都没待超过两年。六年前，我从曼彻斯特的一个老人手里买下了‘第二次机会号’。他说那是一座会移动的房子。那就是我想要的。一座可以随时离开的房子。”